Friday, May 29, 2009

Last night I had the strangest dream, I sailed away to China,
in a little row boat to find ya, & you said you had to get your laundry clean.......

Dreams really are so weird and random.....

I did have a crazy dream last night. You know the kind you have when you wake up even though you know it totally could not happen you still feel disturbed.

I dreamed I was younger, like in my twenties or something. I was at this like summer camp, with a hospital for children on the top....weird, I know......

So anyway, my alarm went off in the room which I was sleeping on the floor, though others were sleeping in beds.

I got up to go to the community girls shower room, plugged in my hair straightener, though my hair was already flat as a piece of paper, with my robe on. Now even though I was inside the bathroom facility I could see what was going on outside. Apparently some city water bladder tank had burst and started to flood the camp....like a tsunami.

While I was in the bathroom water started to come in on the floor like it was flooding, and then there was water coming in everywhere. So I quick ran out (I guess on top of the water some how) and grabbed the phone that was ringing on a wooden post sticking out of the ground.

It was my mom to tell me she had seen on the news that the water was flooding our camp area and was I okay. As I was talking with her another burst of water came flooding in. I climbed up this pole, literally like a monkey, that was connected to some other poles by way of metal beams, all the while holding my mom's cell phone in my hand while my mom was on the phone.

It had been raining for days........wonder why that part was in there......and the ground was saturated already, so the water would not soak into the ground very well and kept getting higher and higher. I could finally see once I was up sitting on one of the metal beams that a gal named Pam H. that I go to church with was up in the window crying, cause she thought I was going to drown.

She was holding a baby. Suddenly the "coal ash" reservoir broke again (this really happened in TN, it is a total mess, you can google it). All this disgusting tsunami gray tidal wave of water came right at me.

I could see I was not going to escape it. I was screaming and my mom was still on the phone, hearing all of this. I decided to get as bigga gulp of air as I could right at the last minute. In my dream I took one last quick breath before the water engulfed me and then there was complete and utter darkness and loud rushing watering sound all around me.

Under the water I thought, who will rescue the infants, who will go first the older child screaming for me to help her or the helpless infants who can't scream for help. I rationalized if I could get out I could carry more than one baby at a time verses only one heavy child, but could I live with the death of the child screaming for me to help them. Then I remembered I had ruined my moms cell phone.........and I woke up.

.......it troubled me that I never new if I ever came up for air and lived all morning.

Though I am obviously awake and doing my normal everyday activity today. I can't shake the drowning feeling, and last gulp of air I inhaled before darkness & water engulfed me.

I hate dreams like that, the ones that play with you all day long.

Thank goodness it was just a dream.

The other night I dreamed my dad was in my house talkng to me, I heard him clear as a bell. I looked all over for him and he was no where. The bad part is I don't even know what he was saying, cause I was to busy looking for him.

dreams.............

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