“Go to the ant, O sluggard; consider her ways, and be wise.” (Prov. 6:6, RSV)
You know how when you flip up a rock or a piece of wood, or just flat kick an ant hill, they all run about? Disruption in their work = chaos....within just a few minutes though they get right back at the task of life rebuilding. Kick an ant hill, in an hour it's looking pretty close to what it looked like before....... because of rebuilding.
“Go to the ant, O sluggard; consider her ways, and be wise. . . . She prepares her food in summer, and gathers her sustenance in harvest” (Prov. 6:6, 8).
“The ants are a people not strong, yet they provide their food in the summer. . . .” (Prov. 30:25).
They do things in steps, not all at once.
While these verses speak about being lazy and procrastination, they also speak to me about rebuilding when my spiritual walk has been kicked about and scattered, disrupted. I guess I need to take a look at the ants and their diligence in getting back on track.
The ants get severely agitated at the invade of their abode and even bite sometimes when they have been messed with. The agitator quickly runs away.
.....I have so been there lately. Severely agitated at letting the temple of my soul become invaded by the distractions of the world and the thing I call church, that I have "bitten" people and even "bitten" myself. I have infected myself with my own poison trying to control things that God normally handles for me.
So I am going to start the rebuilding of my spiritual life. One piece of sand at a time, just like the ants.
More prayer time.
Better study quality.
Accessing God's grace for my iniquities and for others I need to forgive.
Not holding myself accountable for others actions, but holding steadfast to the knowledge that I don't need to chill out..... but I need to buckle down and hold fast.
Allowing myself to hear Gods guidance and not feeling guilty if it isn't the popular choice.
Having had my hill kicked over is not a normal feeling for me. Running about in desperation trying to put my spiritual house back together on my own isn't something I have done in a very long time. I can honestly say, trying to do it on my own has really sucked. I am done with that now. I won't allow myself to feel false guilt anymore. It's destroying my real ability to access the God who built my house to begin with.
While some may feel the need to run around doing whatever they please...... having their course set before them but choosing their own path as better.......accessing no guidance for fear they may have to really work...... loving the life of chaos instead the one that heaps direction and blessing...........
.......I don't feel that need to participate anymore....and I won't. It doesn't bring me joy and I don't feel the love of the Lord. I cannot live without feeling the love of the Lord, It's like my breath to stay alive.
I choose not to settle and suffocate....but to separate and be loved fully and completely for obedience to the God who has NEVER failed me.
When I have turned my back, to walk my way, He grabbed my arm sternly and said. "No! Your path is this narrow one here, get back on it."
As soon as I determined myself to do the hard thing and be face to face with my savior....I felt hope & purpose. My ability to suck in some grace became instantly easier.
I know the one who strokes my weaknesses is furious, discouraged by my choice, and will eventually turn and run away....
Hope and purpose are my first two pieces of sand......